Where to begin. With The House of Disease, I think. Our usually quite resilient immune systems have developed cracks, crevasses more like it. First the hacking cough, then the evil gastroenteritis. Poor little Ally had a spell in hospital having some IV rehydration. Vomiting, diarrhoea and a constantly sore throat (even with paracetamol) made it an uphill battle to get her to drink, or even suck ice. Friday morning saw her alarmingly flat. It's quite impossible to get a same-day (or even same-week) GP appointment in this town, so I went to sit and wait, hoping to catch one of them as they came off their hospital rounds. Strike. Off to A&E for IV insertion prior to admission. Admitted to Children's Ward at around 3.00pm - the saga began at 8.30am!
Not one to waste all that waiting time sitting around twiddling my thumbs, I read The Trout Opera by Matthew Condon (recommended), and started Barbara Kingsolver's book of essays, Small Wonder (lovely, insightful, thought provoking). If I could knit with any competence that would've had a look-in too. Ally just wanted to lie down. Poor little chick.
(Giles with dreadlocks, Linsey, Ally and Suska-the-dog)
The difference even a couple of hours of IV fluids made was...well, miraculous. By the next morning she was pretty much her usual cheeky self. I'm grateful to live in this country, to have access to modern health care, to have it low cost (the GP fee is claimed at Medicare), all that was required was hours of waiting (gainfully used). And Ally is well again. It's so important to maintain accessible, low cost health care for all. Free for those on a low income. Same with education. And...now I'll climb down off my soapbox.
Prior to The House of Disease there was The Wayward Daughter. Leah is grounded for the entire holidays. Having a couple of friends sleep over turned into sneaking out when the house was asleep. At 1.30am a phone call from the police to collect the trio. Picked up by the patrol car making a racket and in possession of several Vodka Cruisers. Leah is not quite thirteen. I don't like to swear, but shit. Shit. So, grounded, has to pay a $55 under age drinking fine = no pocket money for quite a few weeks = not being able to buy phone credit = out of contact with buddies = torture for a (not quite) teen.
Actually, she appears to be mortified and embarassed by the results of the escapade (rather than proud). I take this to be a good sign. Ah, she's such a sweetie. May she navigate this adolescent stuff with skill and emerge intact. This stuff, it's me, back in those years. I will fight for (with) her to emerge with a strong sense of self ( because I didn't).
I'll probably edit this post soon. It doesn't need to stand for eternity. I just wanted you to know that I'm no perfect parent.
Several years ago women at my Steiner Playgoup, and later, Kinder, were convinced I was some sort of super-parent. No assurances that I was fine as long as I took my medication had any weight. They only saw that I had five kids, did this, did that and so on. I think they didn't believe I was on Zoloft. I just couldn't shake the super-perfect-parent label.
I think this label is starting to creep in to the impression people have of my blog. Nooo-oo. Hence this divulgence of family shit. It's all here, but I just don't post about it. Mostly I just want to post about nice things, and keep the other stuff out of the picture. It occupies my daily life, and I don't want my blog to be a constant reflection of the daily stuff. I can't write about it eloquently like many of my favourite blogs (see sidebar).
Ok, scale down. I got a "Sewing Susan" needlebook from a garage sale on Saturday. I'm attracted to these because my name (formally) is Susan - and I sew!
This is the third I've bought. They're all different.
But similar. Lovely.